Lack of Enlightment, it's what's Impeding Humanity

It takes experiencing and enduring discomfort, 
before you grasp an appreciation for comfort

It's funny to me how people lay their focus and place their complaints and concerns on what they lack and seem to ignore what they are abundant in.  This makes me think that they lack appreciation in their richness...as human arrogance feeds their insatiable egos into wanting what is beyond their understanding....while laying blame and finding fault on all external resources within earshot along a very unsatisfying journey into an empty land of gluttony galore.

My everyday life has been a drag...I am so disenchanted with how things are going for me, you and everybody else.  But I do have my health...and if you don't have your health, you won't have much regardless of how someone fills in that void.  Other than health, the only other thing worth having in life is love...because love nurtures the inner self.  Love has to start from within...and that's what I have in order to allow myself the needed tolerance for my circumstance.  Outside love will strengthen that inner self...allowing for a happy existence.

I must admit though, no more so than ever, I am convinced that boys are stupid and girls are crazy...and there's nothing that can fix either (well possibly medicine can help to cope or hide some crazy).  I also know that I am who I am...and I can't be anyone or anything else.  And quite frankly, that seems to be my life's inner turmoil.  I am getting to the point where I am doubting if I want to be here in NY under my current arrangement.

A few weeks ago, I was jokingly asking people for some plutonium.  They would ask "why?" 

I responded by saying

"So I can build myself a rocket and strap all the crazy women in my life to it...and let's see how fast they can get to Mars."

Apparently, Mars is best suited for them.

And it's far from everyone else.

That makes it safer for the rest of us.

And safer sounds so much better that the alternative.

Don't get me wrong, there are degrees and types of crazy...and for some full disclosure, I am not feeling what I am seeing.

On top of it all, I dislike the fact that people's primal instinct when anger strikes them...is to lash out in violence.  It's terrible.

I suppose that since I lack anger, I can't understand why anyone would so simply resort to violence...

People lack the judgement, or foresight...to understand the repercussions once they cross that threshold of violence.

I am convinced, more than ever, that our collective enlightenment is so far away...I doubt that our species will last long enough to experience it.

Pity.

You can't teach a wall to be your floor, but you can certainly stand on your floor to build castle walls

I can't begin to appease such vanity with enlightenment, nor will I ever...as in forever...change my morals to be someone that I am not meant to be.  Or am I someone who can quench the thirst of a horse lost out to sea.  I also find that most blind people tend to see beyond what light can show the rest of us.  I also seem to find that blind people rarely complain of why their light went so dim.  Instead, they took their weakness and turned it into an unforeseeable strength.  See how boundaries tend to create self imposed limits.  Limits are like rules, intended to be challenged until an understanding can be created that tests and exceeds them.
Expectation is the direct road for disappointment
Entitlement is the driving force that sets expectations on the direct path for eternal unfulfillment.