Do I Really

 I'm in a funny spot, as we speak.

(aren't we all)

Sometimes, I want to finish the fight and reap all the gifts life wants to bring into my path...and they are grand, countless and seemingly priceless.

Other times, I feel like just getting to my car and disappearing into another world...new identity and All.

I have no reason to complain, because i have already been gifted a lot more than what most people can ever dream of.  But, it's not who "I" feel that I am meant to be.

Safety with certainty vs alternate life of unknowns.

Most will argue that safe equals smart.

Yesterday, I had hoped...really, really hoped for a defining moment of timing in my life to help support this walk that we all have to endure.  I needed luck, and luck did not find me.

Now, i find myself frustrated with disappointment.  What should be is not happening, and i am getting fed up with the Greed and nonsense that plagues this world.

How

Dare

They

if only the world was flat

if only this world was governed through fairness

if only good comes to us all

Instead

We are challenged to the brink of destruction, and then the world takes a step back and watches how we cope with our troubles.  It's in darkness that our shine helps us see.

Which brings,

This, My...OUR world being this spinning rock hurling through this vacuum that we call space...

Ruled by those who know survival at all cost, by any means necessary.

Good, Bad, Ugly and indifferent....

You either adapt to survive or be feasted upon by the hungry vultures surrounding us all.

s o

We make a God

Because we fear an end that we call death

and Because we need a sense of order amongst all this chaos

We conform because we have safety in numbers

why are we here?

To survive and protect our breed...ensuring the next generation takes the next step.

h a r s h

No One Pretends to care, because its about winning at all costs.  You need to protect yourself first and foremost

What If Enlightenment to a Higher Conscious were to become our End Game?

I boast a reality that I can Only See, and I do what I can to Share

because we all are here to screw it up, so we can then figure it all out

some of us get it, some of us can't

some of us might, some of us almost

while the rest have no shot other than to just be

good, bad, ugly or indifferent

My two cents of a rant that just happened to be

just like we all are now, being

Just or Not

Socially Emotional

 I find the Water's v a s t n e s s

Calm

Serene

and

Peaceful

(enticing)

For it's seducing my mind

to enter it's Abyss

of Eternity

...

But in its

Bliss

I'll miss

The Sunshine that spawned my soul

the priceless gift that i hold

Near and Dear

with all my tears and sorrow

Pain lets me know

that this is no illusion

nor does it hold False Hopes

from there, I derive the strength to rise

and

Fight through

my own battlefield

of Pleasure to Torture

...a truly personalized Hell

This is my dream, my walk

and I insist on going until i can't no more

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

As for, they are our windows

To a realm beyond comprehension

A place of peace and solace

For I dream further than the stones of my confine

The boundaries of my flesh

The very gates of my prison

I swim In an endless conscious

Of want and desire

Where hath has no fear

Just love with no lost sorrow

A galaxy of dimensions

Infinite pleasures

These walls can not hold me

For my immaculate expression

Is omnipresent

and my mind can exist 

In a land of forever

One Mind between Two I's

You need to learn to control your thoughts and in turn gain a better grasp on your mind, mood and behavior.
Why try and control things around you if you can not control what's inside of you?

Learn
         to Control
                         your Mind
                                         and Reality
                                                           will Follow

Sadhguru Says, I do Concur

"If your idea of trust in others is if they behave in a manner that you expect...that is not trusting, that's cunning."
Rather learn to trust your behavior in the wake of any and all uncertainty.

"The mind is a very powerful instrument,

Every thought,

and emotion

that you create

changes

The very Chemistry

of YOUR Body."

"If you learn to create the right climate in your body, mind and emotion...
your health, well being and joy will be well taken care of."
We make our own peace and happiness, we do not find it outside of our existance.

"Anger, resentment and hatred are poisons that one drinks and expects somebody else to die.  Life does not work like that."
Anger, resentment, hatred and jealousy are self inflicted traumas that only afflict the host and taint the  immediate landscape.

"No Work is stressful. It is your inability to manage your mind, body and emotions that make anything stressful."
We are our own reality.

"Don't be Dead Serious about your life, it just a play."
Hence why you should live each day with a smile and the knowledge that's it's your greatest gift.

Here's My Too Cents On a Penny Thought

Have you ever felt as if nothing has been going right for you?
(especially at this very moment in time???)

Well, that's exactly how I am feeling right about now.
All seems to be crumbling around me, and I can not seem to stop any of it.
This epidemic is completely upending everything around me.  This world I live in seems to be burning itself from the inside out, and everyone seems to hate and distrust anything and anybody that seems to be different from what they deem as normal or acceptable.
Financially, I am senselessly sinking a slow death contrary to what should logically be happening.  Thus instigating a needless angst in my otherwise historically calm and serene life.

Then...I try my hardest to remind myself of how lucky I am with my strong health, my quality of life, a family that loves me and friends that would do anything for me.  Plus...I am a well educated, fit, tall and handsome man.  I have plenty to be thankful and grateful for.
Yet, my world is unraveling in this rhythmic tune...and I am unable to reverse this inevitable collapse.

I am waiting to awake from this nightmare that we are ALL stuck in...sitting on the sidelines and constantly watching the depths of humanity dictating day to day life.  I'm not the type to preach about religious virtues (primarily because I see virtues irrelevant of religion, but more so an obligation to humanity)...but our sins are the root cause to all this rebel rousing that has bequeath our daily lives.  That is a direct shot at what the human Ego is responsible for.

Change is necessary, otherwise we are going to wipe ourselves from earth's history.

Lemonade

Same creatures share false shadows
Life's lesson harden our essence
Thoughtless actions, hateful words
Bitter minds taint lost souls
Vengeful eyes assault our light
Darken the path we stand to walk
Eroded respect manipulates integrity
Losing all trust of the host and road ahead
You wait for that moment where 
pleasure
and
pain
Collide
and hope
For love to prevail
but know that in your heart
That your path is no longer
The destiny that once was
or
Will ever be...

We work in simple miracles to learn things the hard way, unfortunately trust is a must
and once it's lost, it's lost forever

Words Aptly Spoken

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers; 

wider freeways but narrower viewpoints; 

we spend more but have less;  we buy more but enjoy it less; 

we have bigger houses and smaller families; 

more conveniences, yet less time; 

we have more degrees but less sense; 

more knowledge but less judgement; 

more experts, yet more problems; 

we have more gadgets but less satisfaction; 

more medicine, yet less wellness; 

we take more vitamins but see fewer results. 

We drink too much; smoke too much; spend too recklessly; laugh too little; drive too fast; get too angry quickly; stay up too late; get up too tired; read too seldom; watch TV too much and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values; 

we fly in faster planes to arrive there quicker, to do less and return sooner; 

we sign more contracts only to realize fewer profits; 

we talk too much; love too seldom and lie too often. 
We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life; 
we’ve added years to life, not life to years. 
We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. 
We’ve conquered outer space, but not inner space; 
we’ve done larger things, but not better things; 
we’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; 
we’ve split the atom, but not our prejudice; 
we write more, but learn less; plan more, but accomplish less; 
we make faster planes, but longer lines; we learned to rush, but not to wait; 
we have more weapons, but less peace; 
higher incomes, but lower morals; 
more parties, but less fun; more food, but less appeasement; 
more acquaintances, but fewer friends; 
more effort, but less success. 
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; 
drive smaller cars that have bigger problems; build larger factories that produce less. We’ve become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; 
tall men, but short character; 
steep in profits, but shallow relationships. 
These are times of world peace, but domestic warfare; 
more leisure and less fun; 
higher postage, but slower mail; 
more kinds of food, but less nutrition. 
These are days of 

two incomes, but more divorces;

fancier houses, but broken homes.

quick trips, 

disposable diapers, 

cartridge living,

 thow-away morality, 

one-night stands, 

overweight bodies 

and 

pills that do everything from cheer, to prevent, quiet or kill. 

It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stock room. 

Indeed, these are the times!

“The Paradox of Our Age” 

in Words Aptly Spoken, 

by Dr. Moorehead 

(from his 1995 collection of prayers, homilies, and monologues used in his sermons and radio broadcasts)

c e n t r i c

Take a deep breathe in,

hold 

and

then slowly exhale.

Step back.

Very few people can set aside their ego and humble themselves.

Unfortunately, 

humans through their egos, make themselves too prideful to admit fault and mistake.  Instead, the ego protects itself by diverting blame.

Preservation

The ego does not acknowledge responsibility of its errors,
The ego, in the image of perfection, is flawless...
Humans, their ego
Are centered in the existance of me
"This World, is my world"
The Only World
Anything (not pertinent) around 'me' is just the shadow of insignificant remnants
and I,
Me,
The Ego
Create the color that fits the puzzle of here
A puzzle, with the solution, conducive of my mood of existence right now


I know that isn't right, but none of this is about being right.
If being right was the end game, I would be in a different state of here and now.

Hope Loves Eternal

Take a sip from my mind to give yourself a taste of my soul,
which is eternal and everlasting....

I'm glad you found humor in monkey vs robot, because no one at work knew what I was talking about.  I had to show them the video, and at that point I just had to share it with anyone and everyone...from here to as far as this internet thing can fetch...which is far, far away
from now until a time long ago

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=I_QsCXm1vrk

Good Times

Right?

Well I hope so, and it's all about Hope and I'm not talking about Solo.

Unless, of course it's Han Solo.

At that point, all hope was lost...and then a new hope arose.

A rose to my pretty lady.

Flowers, to me rejuvenate everyday life with freshness.

I actually really enjoy fresh greenery.

The greener the better, but you knew that already.  In all actually...You always knew that.

and

Knowing

(Which Is very GooD)

is

Believing

Unless, you're Steve Perry and then you just suck.

Right?

I had a strong thought in mind to fly myself to a ufo convention out in the dessert of Southern California.

That pipe dream ended mercifully for me in a matter of six minutes with a donkey kick from reality.

Those really suck, worse than Steve actually.

It's nice to hold onto dreams, and in my dreams I often find the impossible.

That's short for

i m possible

According to most, I am impossible.

Not for long, and not for far.

 This small rock, that's flying through space at ungodly speeds

Spinning fast enough to keep us glued to it

Within a zooming Galaxy

That is our reality

That is our life

But, today I've come to the true meaning of why I am encapsulated in flesh on this rock

and it's to unconditionally love

It has to start with me and selflessly extend out

with Peace

Peace Out

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cX7rnhmiV4A

What Has Many Faces

Humans are a funny bunch.  They feel most comfortable in familiar environments, with others that share similar features and agreeable conditions.  It's because it is safe, and safety comes in numbers.  When you examine our recent ancient history, some six thousand years, you will find one repeatable pattern.
Conflict.
More specifically, conflict in the name of belief.
a
n
d
Therein lies the world's most polarizing and destructive question that shapes OUR planet daily.
Who's/What is your God.
Time and time again, if that answer doesn't coincide with the perceive correct belief...well, that will lead to a fight...

Not unless you let it.
Go on and ask me what I think....?

I'm spiritual without any religion. There, I said it.
To me, God is the eternal and everlasting universal energy that spawned my existance.  I don't have to place a face on it, nor does it have to explain or justify itself to me.
I should feel fortunate enough to experience it, hold no regrets in the process...and appreciate every moment.
Because it goes by fast, and it holds a very fragile presence.
It's meant to teach me everything that I am willing to endure but not necessarily learn.
Along this journey I call life, I get to meet you.
I can make whatever I choose to make of it.
It's my reality, it's my truth.
a
n
d
I don't care if anyone even pays attention, because I am not trying to instill my will, thought or beliefs on anyone.
I believe in free will.
So use it, but don't you dare abuse it.
Life is fleeting, so learn to appreciate it...no persecute it.

That's my two cents, when you only asked me for a penny per thought.  Keep the change, you'll need it.

From Sticks n Stones to Flesh and Bones

I am not judging anyone, nothing intentionally hurtful that anybody posts online do I consider wrong.  It's artistic expression for each poster...therefore, it's appropriate for the individual.
I may not understand everyone's point, I may not even agree with all the posts.  But I would never outright call other people's words, art, views as wrong.
I do find bullying (which is a form of racism) as wrong though, that's not artful expression.  I would call that hurtful and malicious and there is no place for such behavior whether it's here, home, work school or anywhere else.
This world as a whole needs to become better c-o-n-n-e-c-t-e-d  and more understanding, versus controlling and domineering.  People NEED to stop fearing what the don't know or understand and MAKE the effort to expand their realm of knowledge and comprehension.
As a race, we need to enlighten ourselves before we devastate modern humanity and endanger the well being of future generations...which we are on a fast track on doing.
This planet grows older and older as we learn to interpret time and space.  There's a good chance we've done this all before, and from the looks of it...failed.
That's the thing about history, if we forget about what it can teach us, we become doomed to repeat it.
Albert Einstein might have been a high school dropout, but his wisdom and insight can reveal many dark truths that our inner sinner preys upon...
He said that he may not know what weapons will be used for War World III, rest assured world war four will be fought with sticks and stones.

LIFE happens

I have no choice, I am going to be dead one day whether I like it or not.  It's my inevitable end in the cycle of life.

I accept my fate, and I will try to live up to my fullest 

until when that moment comes 

in which 

I cease to 

exist...

So, what's life...is it here for me or am I here for it...?

Life is here, I am fortunate enough to be allowed to explore it.
Life is a series of lessons intended for me to experience.
Life is timeless, permanent and immortal, without a master...yet I am it's slave.
Life grows, always...
Life changes, all the time for everyone and everything.
Life holds no virtues or morals, nor does it ever apologize.
Life is for the strong, weak...and those all those in between.
Life has no rules, other than survival of the fittest.
Life exists in cycles. Dark or bright, awakened or hibernating.  With constant chaos and mindful randomness.
Life reaches everywhere.
Life does not judge, nor does it discriminate...but also seems to be unequal and unfair.
Life gives all a chance to make the most of what we can.
Life is the only priceless gift we all are given, and our mindset determines how respectful we are of it and with it.
In Life we chose to be who and what we are, that's the power of free will...just sometimes we choose to surrender it and pretend to be victimized by circumstance.
I can't buy a thought (or maybe I could), but I certainly can create one...and that's the beauty of life.
I'm lucky enough to be here and now, so are you.
I'm lucky enough to share with you, everything that I offer to divulge.
I'm lucky and cursed enough to know that life isn't here forever for me, because it is infinite and eternal...unlike me, but I still have my will and sense of being...and know one will ever take that away from me, unless I allow it.

From time to time, I think of all the ifs, ands or buts....and I realize
This isn't too bad because it could always be worse.
Here is where I find my gratitude, the greatest thing I can give back to life.

a road to s o m e w h e r e

We have chosen all our stops in life

For better or for worse

Everything is

A lesson to be learned

Taught by our inner guide, 

Our greatest teacher

To our most naive student

look inside first

Before you seek a forward step

Our inner whisper

Speaks v o l u m e s

Worth endless lifetimes

Lost means gone

What's misplaced gets rediscovered

It's how we look,

It's what we learn

This is how we grow

Whether it's here, there or somewhere else

Blooming or not

We still feel the earth beneath us

And our star above us

Rooting deep

Spreading tall

Forever growing

Refusing to fall victim to the stagnancies of everything

And to be here, in the moment

Experiencing what our purpose really is

From here to there

In The NOW

And that somewhere is Infinity

From Forwards to Backwards and Beyond

Juanita ana banana,

Name me All your most favorite fruits, in color coordinated alphabetical order.  Leave no pits behind.

Next, I saw an enormous moon this morning...rumor has it, the next one will be even bigger...because it will be nearer.  A Super Snow Moon, or so they say.  Don't you ever wonder who "they" really are?  'They' are probably boring and monotoned.  With plaid socks and pocket protectors.  Looking up at speckles of light through telescopes, all the while speaking into mental megaphones.  Making midgets from dwarfs.  This world that we live in has over corrected their political correctness, only to confuse my muse and create doubt from wrong within a right...but only on left handed turns without stops...should one fully yield, and come completely to a halt.  It's no ones fault, if our truth is hidden within a mystery vault.

Nope, it's no one's fault...because we live in a politically correct world where fault only lies with those who have been run over by the bus.  After all, they chose to step onto the road...an overcrowded road...littered in signs....stating what's right and what's not.

I'm so confused.

But wait, how could that be.

As in me.

Yes, Me.

Or I.

I descend upon this land, with my mirror in hand.  And I, through reason and logic know how and what to decipher (without insult) my lefts from wrongs...without yielding myself or selling my soul to a void of collective mindlessness.  How can I go forward in life, if I am constantly detouring in circles on this over stimulated rock that lies an astronomical unit away from its inferno.

Only time can tell that infinite story,

The man made measure of life...

Man is here to create death, destruction and demise.

For I am just another man, who sees nothing but what has been done...and where we are heading to...

Time, has met me now

Time, has led me here

Time, has brought us all front and center

But NO one accepts the responsibility

But NO one assumes the strongest path

But NO one dares walk a line crooked from corruption....

Greed finds teeth bitten in the flesh of a core, weakened by all the division that time brought us all.

Humanity will remain divided as long as it works on an individual basis, irrelevant of what is to come...because, with time, everything will change...and we will become the forgotten ghosts of yesteryear.

To bad, what a pity and here we were thinking that this all mattered for something significant.

Change for the better is but a dream that will only exist in a thoughtless life, where self becomes selfs as a whole...and time, at that point won't matter...because a higher conscious sees no barrier between here, there or anywhere.

Fill that pit with smoke and fire and watch it burn bright with light...void of desire.

The enemy of us, and friend of the me.

Like I said, too bad.

PUFF like that Magic Dragon

Tom is scared of food, and Melissa made my bag of clothes smell like bananas...damn her, and damn them.  She'll get hers too, one day not too late...soon enough.

Two in the morning and you're writing emails about your mini fridge, as if your trying to make all other appliance jealous.  Might I suggest a hot plate or crockpot be added to your repertoire.

Whatever you do, don't forget to drink your water...it is, without doubt, the most crucial nutrient your body needs.

Speaking of nutrition, I baked two duck eggs with spinach and squash.  Of course I added in a small container of egg white solution to up the quantity of overall nutrition.  I also brought with me two apples.  I already finish about a forth of the baked eggs and for dessert I had one Apple.  In about sixty minutes, I should be having my second dose of my baked eggs.

Maybe I should start a cooking podcast.

If only I had the desire for attention.

I love going ignored, don't let that confuse you though...I do like educating and inspiring even more.

Remember, you must love yourself first before you can even begin to allow outside love to find you...and when you find it, grow with it.

The One constant in life is change.

I have eleven remaining appointments today, what will I do after I am done like a nun...rosary and all...some hot vinyasa with meg and her sorority girl following.  They can be so nauseatingly cliquish, but they do look cute in their yoga pants but too annoying in their Kardashian tone.  This world has already been hand delivered to a domaine of eternal useless stupidity.  And I, it's ever loving...everlasting  quiet observer....just watch in a stupendous amazement the obsolete idiotic chaos that I am force fed to endure.

It's where yuck and puke meet for brunch.

Personally, I love brunch.  The best of all worlds.

I live and die with my eggs, regardless of weather...season...or mood!

Roll that thought and smoke it.

You Miss 100% of the Shots You don't Take

First place and counting, that's right how about them Islanders!  It's still a long ways away before Lord Stanley's Cup tournament...quite possibly the most intense tournament in North American professional sports, with participants from all around the world.  It's the only sport in the world that it's a good thing to score a goal and get into a fist fight in the same game.  You certainly aren't allow (nor is it condoned) to do that in any other sport...and I am including boxing and MMA.

FYI (short for your information)

DYK (an abbreviation for did you know) that I use to take hot yoga with a former MMA champ?

His name is Chris Wiedman, and he is a swell of a guy.

You just never know who you are going to meet at yoga class, you really don't.

I've met some really crazy people there too.  As a matter of fact, most people at hot yoga are crazy.

But don't let them know I said so, after all what's that saying about throwing stones if you live in a glass house.

That's why I always wanted to live in a teepee, there is no need OR desire to throw stones.  Stone throwing is overrated and underscored.

Unless you're skipping stones, because that's fun and good.

As a kid, I could spend an entire afternoon trying to skip the perfect stone...hence, how and why I have profoundly come to peace with the philosophy that perfection is a transient illusion that leads to anxiety, angst and a constant insatiable desire for more of everything.

Being that I have said less with more before, I might as well quite while I am a head with short hair....once upon a time I had a lot of hair, and all that got me was a big bill for shampoo and conditioner.

Can I please, please...please find the resolve for happiness even with nothing in hand.

That would be a great humanistic lesson to be had.

Don't you say?

The quote by Wanye Gretzky

OUR Path to our Holy Grail

As Monty Python once proclaimed, "I'm not dead yet!"
How have you been?  How have things been?  How has life been treating You?
Are you in a happier place?  

     Happiness comes from within, peace comes from understanding and accepting the inner self.  Strength comes from not fearing our weaknesses.  Success is what we choose to make of it.  We often defeat ourselves and we tend to blame the world for them.  In general, I would write more if I gave myself that added time to spend doing what I love to do.  In my defense, I have been very active vocalizing my philosophies with others on a more one to one basis....so I have taken the spoken word approach...which deprives the rest of whatever audience might want to listen.  I am me, will always be...and I will never apologize or adulterate who I am.  I like me for being me.  I like incorporating me in all sorts of environments that might find some sort of new angle on old perspectives.  I find life too short to worry about things beyond our level of influence.

I can only control (if, and it's a big if I allow myself to) my thoughts, which in turn can impact my:

mood

feelings & emotions

inspirations

Intentions

motives, initiations and actions

Basically...My Overall Outlook and all my magnificent, miraculous and marvelous reactions on how I fit within this world that we all call home.

Because this IS home to all of us, not just to you and I.

The We part is what seems to seperate and alienate us from one an other.
We instinctively shy away from things different from our familiarities.  Leading to self insecurities from these unknowns.  Therefore, we either try to change or destroy what we can not understand.  More times than not, we are unwilling to even attempt to understand...

Shame

On

Us

!

We can trace most, if not all our problems back to our Ego (here we go) and our greed for substance.

In order for this entire planet to change for the better,
Man has to bypass the ego
Overcome ignorance and arrogance
Become more open minded in understanding what needs to be understood in order to bridge misunderstandings
and embrace the possibility of a higher state of a collective consciousness and enlightenment.

Like I said, I am not close to being Dee Ee Dee dead!

Do you have a Soul, or are you a spirit imitating someone with a Soul?

Energy can not be created or destroyed
Only transferred
Or so they say
I have a conscious
I have a perceived reality therefore I do exist as energy
If you want to refer to my soul as energy, so be it
Because I am here, I am real
I have thought, I have the ability to initiate actions
I can reason, I can solve, I can explain
I have feelings, I have emotions
I experience a world filled with consequences and circumstances
There is no imitating or pretending, I perceive my energy bounded by my flesh therefore I am energized flesh
The soil beneath my feet, the air that animates my blood...
I experience it, I feel it...I live it

I am me

Sweet Love

Cool and calculating
Soft, yet delicate
Precise
Like a quiet slice
Calming
Finding peace
Opening my soul
Exposing my essence
Creating my solace
Sharing with the world
What I hold to myself
I
am
One
with
my
Red
I die bye my sword
Because
that is where my piece finds me

Time

ceases to exist 

when we embrace

As if 

my 

d i v i d e d 

soul 

once again 

becomes 

whole

In a world
that is constantly

c h a n g i n g

It's where
I found my peace

When we became one

And in its infinite oceans of eternity
It all came to a halt
As we merged into us

She

Is

Water