As the clock strikes midnight...
Eastern Time...
In, we usher the 2012 year...
an arbitrary start point, if you ask me...
Is it really that big of a deal?
Happy New Years to all...and may all of your dreams come true...whether its tonight, tomorrow or the following day...the instant you yield your pursuit of your dreams, is the same instant that you concede defeat...
P.s. In the Chinese Calander
The start of the new year is January 23 rd
About three weeks away
See, all relative
I agree that it's not that big of a deal but to some it may be. People find comfort in numbers. In being being surrounding by others that are of like mind. For instance those people that go to the gym because they like being in that atmosphere. Being around others who may have the same goals: health, fitness, appearance, routine. New years is a time where people feel they can "start over". Whether it be a short or long term goal that they abandoned or just the feeling that they are not alone in restarting a goal. Yes, most new years resolutions are left by the waste side quickly but for me it's the start of a new chapter. As you probably know my mother suffered from ALS for the last three years. Although she lived in Florida with my father, i was her primary health caretaker. Coordinating dr appt, aligning medications, and dealing with each devastating loss of mobility from her left foot, to her left leg, to being wheel chair bound to finally being totally paralyzed. It was a very painful journey as you could imagine. She died august of this year and I was lucky enough to be by her side for the last days of her life. I actually spent the last month with her easing her mind and body and discussing the after life. I spent each night caressing her hair, telling her stories and jokes, discussing old boyfriends, life choices, God, spirits, the beyond. I assured her she would be part of mine and my children's lives forever. You often talk about people not following their dreams. "once you yield then you are defeated". There are times in people's lives where someone or something else takes precedent. People would tell me: don't worry your dad is with her. Don't worry the doctors will take care of her. No bleeping way. If my mother was dying I was going to move heaven and earth to do whatever I could. And I did. I am proud to say that I put my mother first and do not have one single regret. My children were well cared for, happy and content. In fact in the hospice during the last days of my mothers life i was names the watch/bulldog of my mothers. I supervised ever moment of those last days. I slept on a cot next to her giving anything she needed at 1:00, 2:00, 3:00
ReplyDeletein the morning without hesitation. Sooo......the new year is now a time for me. I have an amazing job, a supportive husband and three energetic children that keep me going. The start of the new year is a year minus the disease of ALS. Minus a suffering mother and family. A year where we can continue to celebrate her and all her contributions to our life but not have to worry.
Just, remember, when all you have to worry about is yourself it's easy to look at others and judge. It's not until you have the responsibility of others that you can understand someone putting their dreams aside.